Unrequited Love

Dear Stephanie,
I have omitted most of your question due to length, but I'm going to answer these questions as they come, and then add some of my own thoughts.

QUESTIONS:
If you are a girl…
 Can you understand what I have done? Yes, I can understand it.Would you have done the same? Not really, but I have been in similar situations and have empathy towards a lot of your feelings.
 Do you think Matt still has feelings towards me? No idea.
 Is what I felt love or just a crush? Well, in my opinion, love is a crush and a crush is love. But from my experience real love can hardly be felt if it's unrequited. The best love is when there is a channel for it. Love is a verb. It is actively giving to another person. So you probably do love Matt, but it is not at it's full capacity because you can't do anything about it.
 What should I do now?
I honestly believe that you need to put an end to this. Either way. And it is within your power to do it. From my experience:

1. I am around 5 or 6 and I too have a crush on a much older boy who is a family friend. We too were paired up by family and our parents made it out to be something "cute." I was bold. We were at a party and I took him aside and for the first time in my life I whispered those 3 little words, "I love you". The look of shock on his face was something right out of the movies. I don't remember what he said. But I do remember his look and the way he walked away. And then for the first time I saw myself and realized how silly the whole thing was. My feelings suddenly were not as intense and I was able to move on very quickly. Now as an adult I am proud of myself for my bravery and have applied this experience to many aspects of my life.
2. I am in high school and I like a guy for over a year. He and I are great friends and talk all the time. He goes through several crushes before he finally decides he wants to be with me. We date for a few months and then he goes to college and it's not the same ever again.
3. I am in college and once again I am the subject of unrequited love. We are friends and see each other everyday. I make myself crazy over how to make him fall in love with me. But the whole time he has a girlfriend. I never told him how I felt. I just suffered for almost a year with the knowledge that I failed. Even though I am blissfully happy with my husband, I still regret not opening my mouth and saying how I felt. I could have saved myself a lot of grief if I just got rejected early and moved on.

Now I know that these experiences are not going to fix everything for you and may not make you feel better at all. But I share them because of what I have learned. I have learned that I should not let a boy or feelings get in the way I want to live my life. And that if I can't change the way someone feels, I shouldn't try.

Two more things:

1. You may have a hard time changing your feelings. They are so much of who you are. But it is possible.
2. What you must do above all else is change your actions. You are not in control of anyone or anything else but you. I honestly hope that you can share your feelings with Matt and that he shares them too, but if not-you need to live your life in a healthy, and a productive, and a happy way. Whatever you have to do to get there-do it. Get counseling, rely on good friends and family, love yourself, and get to where you can respect your life.

Good luck,

Amy

Caught in the Middle

Dear Amy,

I been having this problem with myself going to church and my family. See I'm the only person in my family who is LDS and I go to church and church activites. But the past couple weeks people in my ward want me to try to get my parents involved in the church. When they've told me the don't and every since I started going to church my parents are fighting all the time and are thinking of spliting up. So I'm thinking that going to church is tearing my family apart. Any Advice?

If your parents are going to split up, they are going to split up and it won't have anything to do with you or whether or not you go to church. You need to do what feels right in your heart. If you talk with your parents and let them know how concerned you are about this, I'm sure they will reassure you.
It would be great if your parents shared your beliefs, but if they don't-they can and should still be supportive to yours. Talk to them about the expectations that you have-do you need rides to church and do you need them to go with you?
The best thing I would have to say is make sure you have a conversation with them. It might not change anything, but I'm guessing it will make you feel better.

Good luck,
Amy

True?

Dear Amy,

I'm having this problem where I am questioning whether or not I'm going to get baptized in my LDS Church. I started going to church in my home town of Las Vegas and I loved it so much. Then I ended up moving to Washington and I was going to get baptized in September of 06 then before I was going to go into the water I decide not to go though with it. Now I'm having the problem if I should try it again. I don't know if it's because I got so used to my old church that I can't try a new church. Any Advice?

From Confused.

Dear Confused,
This is a tough one because I'm afraid I am biased. I am a faithful member of the LDS church and as such I think getting baptized is the right thing to do. However, I can't go to church for you, or get baptized for you. So I'm afraid this is something that you will have to make your own decision about.
But there is good news-you don't have to make the decision alone. Remember that "ask and ye shall receive, knock and it shall be opened unto you."
If you really desire to know whether the church is true (not just if you have friends there or if it's entertaining), but if it's really true, and you ask God in sincere prayer, He will let you know if getting baptized is the right thing.
This experience probably won't be anything fancy, and it may take some time, but it will be real, and it will be right.
The other thing I would say to you is that you'll never be able to make a decision if you are half-hearted. Go to church every week. Go to any of the social activities or service projects they offer. Study the scriptures and read LDS literature that will develop your knowledge of the principles. Live as if you were baptized and I think it will become obvious to you what you should do.
Also, I would talk to your ward leaders and peers and find out what made them join. Ask any questions you may have.
I know that a lot of the time people go to church because of their friends or the time of day, or the minister, but in this church it is important to join because you have a testimony of its truthfulness. You don't need to know everything about it and you most certainly will have lots more questions, but you can pray and get to the point where you do not doubt it is true.
Good luck making your decision. I know you will do the right thing.

Thanks,
Amy

Work Dilemma

Amy,
My work review is six months overdue. My anniversary date happened when my employer was having heart surgery. He has recovered and recently he acknowledged that we should talk before his vacation. But it came and went and we still haven't talked. Since his surgery, his health hasn't returned 100%, he hasn't had the stamina to work as before and because of this revenue is down. I need to ask for a $3,000 raise due to expensive prescription drugs and I think my work reflects that I am worth that much more. I want to be sensitive to the company's problems and really don't plan to leave if I don't get the full $3000 but want to know what I should do. Loyal to a fault?

No, you are not loyal to a fault. It's great that you are sensitive enough to take your company and boss' health into consideration. However, it is not good that you have put their needs so far above your own. Just because someone is dealing with something in their own life, it doesn't mean that they aren't willing to help someone else.
So I will say to you what my grandfather said to me many times: "The squeaky wheel gets the grease." I think that you absolutely should approach your boss about the raise. Especially since you want to do it the right way-you are willing to be reviewed and expect a fair amount. If I were to guess I would say that your boss just simply has forgotten about this, or at least put it on the bottom of the priority list. I think he will respect you if you politely bring these issues to his attention.
If he doesn't seem willing to meet with you, however, don't give up. It is your company right to be reviewed and you should not be put off forever.

Thank you so much for your question and good luck to you. Be sure to let us know how it goes. Let me know if I can help in any other way. Thanks!

Amy

Coming Soon

again I apologize to any delay in answering questions. I have added a couple members to my family so they have been getting most of the attention...but I will be getting "back to work" soon...
my best goes out to everyone.

Love, Amy

I'm Sooo Sorry

Dear faithful/any readers of this blog:
I apologize that I have been negligent to you. Apparently I had no idea that my comments were being moderated, and as a result, didn't see any of the questions addressed to me. I hereby repent and am back to being at your service.
I can't guarantee how frequently and quickly I can respond to questions (I will have my hands full come August with my new arrivals) but I still am willing to keep this blog updated for you. Helping and responding to you is what I love to do.
Be sure to read the newest questions and advice posted below.

Thank you so much for your patience,
Amy

Heart Sick Marriage

Amy,
My 24 year old nephew is engaged. There are just so many issues with this engagement, I feel like I am watching the train run off the bridge and don't know how to stop it. They currently live with his parents and most importantly neither has lived on their own. (They have never paid rent, gas and electric- nothing!) The fiance suffers from manic depression and has been hospitalized twice during the last year. I see my sister constantly buffering between the two when times get stressed between the couple. If my nephew is playing a game or talking to a friend and not paying attention to the fiance, she will say, "I'm mad at you" and storm away. He immediately rushes to her side. He does not even walk into the other room unless she is right next to him.
I finally went to speak to my sister. I stated my feelings in the most gentle way, I told her that at the least they should not get married until they have lived on their own -and have her son deal with the mental health issues on his own. I told her what I had observed and my fear that they are both unaware of what they will be dealing because my sister is always there to intervene when the fiance gets sick or just starts pouting over not getting attention. Yet, they are still rushing to get married in September. My husband and I are just sick over this, what can we do? My husband has a talked to my brother in law, also. Do I just accept this or what? I am just so heart sick over this.

Dear Heart Sick,

I don't blame you. I agree that this marriage is heading toward dangerous waters. There are definitely several warning signs and red flags.

Unfortunately, I don't know what you can do about it. I'm glad that you have lovingly addressed your concerns to your sister. What was her reaction? If she handled it well, could you push a little further? I don't think it's wise to "break up" the couple or end the marriage, but I agree that postponing it, or at least getting them to live on their own would be a great step. Lots of young, naive kids get married without knowing what rent is, and they can usually work it out. But the manic depression is a worry. Those things usually escalate in marriage and would require professional help.

As an aunt, or parent it's hard to know how much to help children. I'm all for parents "helping" their adult children-but not to the point that they become a crutch! There is a scary trend these days of "our generation" (yes, I'm young and naive too) not knowing how to work, keep a job, live on their own, or to work through things without giving up. We feel a sense of entitlement to everything without working for it. I don't know how this happened but I think it's a shame. I think it sure would be tough to watch your child suffer through situations though. It would be hard not to help.

Beyond expressing your concern, and going to the nephew yourself, I'm afraid my expertise doesn't extend much further. As far as accepting it, I don't think you need to right now. But the day that they say I do officially is when it probably is time to keep your opinions to yourself and love your family. This doesn't mean that you have to pretend every thing's okay, but it's past the time to try to change things that have already happened. It would be wise at that point to help and support your nephew into having a good marriage. Hopefully that makes sense. I'm not trying to tell you to have a blind eye or to accept abnormal behavior. But now is the time to express your opinions most strongly. But please do not burn bridges with your family. This marriage is probably going to take place no matter what, and I would hate for you to lose your relationship with your sister, etc. over it. No sense in making yourself miserable.

You seem like a practical and intelligent person. I recommend above all that you follow your instincts. You know your family. You'll know what is best to do. I don't know if you are religious or not, but I always highly recommend prayer. It is the best solution to any situation. Feel free to write again for more help.
And I'm sure that other readers could help me out with suggestions here as well. The best of luck to you!
-Amy